Have you ever searched for words to get you in their heart.. But you don’t know what to say..
And you don’t know where to start.. Have you ever closed your eyes and dreamed that they were there..
And all you can do is wait for that day when they will care..

Saturday, 5 March 2011

my first ice skating lesson



"dear God, may I cancel all those big dreams
and just enjoy these simple-things-happiness?" 
(Arum, 2011)



it was a great night, I should say it. it started with, as usual, my Wednesday hang-out time with besties, salsa nite at Gardenice PVJ. berhubung Wiwin menang sebagai runner-up II intermediate competition on last Saturday, jadi kita nagih main ice skating gratis deh. kata Wiwin bisa hari Rabu, after salsa nite, of course.
janjian sama Lia & Acit di ZOE abis maghrib, mampir dulu ke atm sekalian liat berapa kenaikan gaji tahun ini biarpun agak bingung juga secara nominal terakhir gaji aku aja ga inget, ehehe.. jam tujuh kurang, my ex-partner in competition, and my steady partner-wannabe (I guess) udah sms nanyain aku udah di PVJ belum. lha, ketemuan ma dua anggota beca lainnya aja belum. (duh, ada ‘julukan’ lain yang agak elitan dikit ga sih? pernah ngajuin ‘ferrari lagi ganti ban satu’ tapi ga ada tanggapan lebih lanjut..).
sampai PVJ jam delapan kurang dan berhubung Gardenice tampaknya masih sepi-sepi aja, jadi kita ke Carrefour dulu. nyari minum, nyari-nyari keperluan lainnya dulu, sedikit ‘ngabisin’ waktu dulu lah. jam delapan masuk Gardenice, dan ternyata masih sepi juga. tapi musik emang udah nyala sih. di sana baru ada beberapa orang, Gege (ya iya lah!), dan Mbak Yaya – yang manggil kita bertiga dengan ‘julukan’ baru, trio kwek-kwek! haduuuhhh... segitu ga terpisahkannya kita bertiga ya? (ahaha, baru nyadar..). dan emang kita segitu berisiknya ya? (ga nyadar..).
berhubung masih sepi, jadi kita nangkring-nangkring aja. duduk manis sambil main tamagotchi atau online twitter. lagian janjian main ice skatingnya juga jam 9an kok, nunggu Wiwin beres ngajar dulu. dan nunggu lumayan sepi juga pastinya, secara kagak bisa sama sekali. kan malu kalo jatoh, ahaha.
ga lama anak-anak cowok datang – Aped, Jo, Mitun, and Kodir. tapi mereka langsung khusyuk sama tugas nempelin nomer di buku tamu (ciee.. anak buahnya Gege..). paling Aped yang udah mulai beredar. gangguin Jo buat jadi steady-partner-nya Acit, gangguin Surip yang latihan diem-diem di belakang cafe. minta Lia sms Wiwin buat pinjem file foto malah ditawarin buat masuk sekalian. berhubung Gege + Aped menghilang, Mbak Yaya juga pulang lebih awal karena ada keperluan lain, jadi kita bertiga langsung kabur deh ke arena skating. tapi berhubung garing kalo cuma bertiga doang jadinya aku ma Lia balik lagi dulu buat ngajak anak-anak cowok. kata Wiwin ‘lumayan buat megangin kalo kalian jatuh’. eh, kembali ke arena dansa malah dapet ‘briefing singkat’ dari Surip soal masa depan Fresca. dan akhirnya kita manggil dia kepala sekolah, soalnya dia juga yang nyuruh anak-anak cowok buat ‘melacur’ ma tante-tante di sana (ampe aku lagi dance ama Mitun aja di-cut, hiks..). Lia balik duluan ke arena skating, sementara aku masih ‘terjebak’ sama petuah-petuah bapak kepsek. udah gitu kabur nyusul Lia, abisnya garing sendiri. Mitun, Jo, & Kodir melantai (ama tante-tante, ahaha). Surip ngilang ngater Reyno yang pulang duluan.
lagi asyik copy-copy foto dari harddisc portable Wiwin, Mitun tiba-tiba datengm ngajak aku buat nge-dance. dia pengen nari tapi pundung sama satu tante, tawarannya ditolak gara-gara Mitun juga masih belajar.. hihihi.. akhirnya kita nari ampe 3 lagu berturut-turut, nyobain lagi semua gerakan di list kompetisi kita (yang tetep aja ampe sekarang aku ga inget urutannya, hehe..). udah gitu, kabur lagiiii..
akhirnya kita bertiga memutuskan buat masuk ring ski duluan, main duluan, soalnya khawatir bakal ditarik lagi buat ngapain gitu. dan yang aku lakuin cuma naplok di pinggiran ring. huwee.. seriously, ga bisaaa..
jam 10an salsa nite selesai, jadi anak-anak Fresca nyusul ke ring – Gege, Jo, Mitun, & Kodir. Surip & Aped dateng belakangan, abis ngerokok dulu. kebetulan Wiwin juga udah selesai ngajar, jadi kita asli main-main bareng. dan ternyata, arena ice skating tutup jam 10an, jadi berasa kita main privat deh, khusus Fresca doang. well, pastinya karena ada Wiwin sih ya..
main ice skating udah berasa kayak anak kecil aja. lempar-lempar es, masuk-masukin es ke baju, tabrak-tabrakan, sampe Aped belajar akrobat sama Wiwin. haduh, anak itu beneran kelebihan energi ya..
permainan berakhir jam 11, ditutup dengan ular-ularan. DAN.. 3 kali ular-ularan, 3 kali juga aku jatuh! huwee.. celana basaaahh.. dan saking capeknya ketawa aku ampe ga bisa langsung berdiri.. ahaha.. mana siku luka lagi, biarpun aku ga ngeh juga awalnya, soalnya anggota badan udah mati rasa.. hihihi..
pas pulang Gege ngajak ngebaso dulu di depan PVJ situ, tapi kita sih skip. abis Lia kan masih harus nganterin aku ma Acit, jadi dia sampe rumah bakal malem banget. so, kita say goodbye-see you next time di depan Gardenice.
sampai rumah makan malem sambil nemenin mama ngerjain kebaya, yang jadinya lucu bangeeett. iya we harus lucu da hasil diskusi panjang lebar + utak atik kain sisa selama berhari-hari (lebaaayy..). ga lama masuk kamar, memaksakan diri harus langsung tidur, karena besoknya kerja pagi *sigh!*
hmm, it was really a great night, some hours full of laugh and fun.. and that moment, with last Saturday moment also, made me rethink about what I really want in my life. I even thought ‘may I cancel all those big dreams and just enjoy these simple-things-happiness?’. cause I finally found that this is my place : playing with music, doing some new things, work hard and laugh harder, and even meet some great people. huff, mungkin aku ga akan bisa mewujudkan mimpi 10 tahun aku, mungkin aku ga akan bisa dapetin dokter atau ekspatriat (hahay..), tapi untuk saat ini aku belum mau mempertaruhkan kebahagiaan kecil ini demi sesuatu yang mulai ga yakin bakal bisa aku jalanin. karena ternyata selama penantian panjang aku menuju sang mimpi terbesar itu, aku justru menemukan tempat di mana aku ingin berada, dan juga kotak-kotak kecil berisi kebahagiaan. Yang jadi pertanyaan selanjutnya adalah apakah aku akan meneruskan jalan yang tengah kutempuh atau mengalihkan langkahku ke arah baru yang dilahirkan sang kotak kejutan itu. well..







Friday, 4 March 2011

one night Cinderella


hmm, kenapa aku memberinya judul seperti itu?
because when the party was over and I went back home, I felt like Cinderella.. berada di pesta yang sangat menyenangkan seolah mimpi, and after midnight, it zap me back to reality..
but it was really really fun, even I can't write it with words.. so I will let the pictures tell you the story.. :)






     Ven Baila Conmigo
     Come & Dance With Me

     Salsa Fresca 5th Anniversary

     Saturday, 26th February 2011
     Landmark Convention Hall - Bandung









backstage madness after the competition

Astrid with Hendra
me with Mitun

Lia with Wiwin


Alice with Kodir

the girls

the boys




























The Winner from Salsa Fresca

2nd runner-up and 1st runner-up for intermediate level

1st runner-up for Advance level

Performance

90Degrees Breakers
Latin Dance Australia

Cicua dance with Jaime Jesus
Starlinn Choo

























Josie


















Pictures with Guest Stars

with Gupson Pierre

2 girls with red.. I don't know who are their name..

with Vicki Burky




































with Starlinn Choo

















Another Pictures

tiup lilin..!!

with Surip, the music manager

b-boys ft. Alice & Surip

all crews, performances, and guest stars










and this is my favorite picture

just how sweet they are


Thursday, 17 February 2011

Y.T.G. - Ola

from Ola Svensson's third album - Ola



I had a girl in Paris
she was a cold cash addict
she made me taste her cherry
like it was neccesary

I did a thing in Vegas
not even God could save us
I don't know what they gave us
it wasn't hard to blame us

but I can promise you this much
I'll never do that to you

[chorus]
some of the girls are gonna take my money
some of the girls they gonna make me cry
you are the one who's gonna make me love you
you're that girl, you're that girl

cause you are that one who's gonna steal my heart
and hold it so high for every bitch to see
but you are the one who's gonna make me love you
you're that girl, you're that girl

I had a fling in Baghdad
she was the hot miss Baghdad
she was the one and only
but then she made me so sad

yeah I could be so shameless
and not to mention heartless
like I just couldn't careless
but that was in my dark past

but I can promise you this much
I'll never do that to you

[chorus]

you're that girl, you're that girl
I think I know what you're thinking
that I'm the one who's gonna let you down
but let me turn this shit around
I'll never do that to you (do that to you)

[chorus]

yeah, you're that girl
and all I need
is to rock your world
you're that girl



thanks to : www.youtube.com/user/TessAmore94 for the lyrics  

Wednesday, 16 February 2011

my small reunion


what a sweet small reunion, that is what I said about my last reunion, yesterday. cuma sebentar sih, since it happened in Jakarta and I was late went from Bandung. yah, seperti biasa, insomnia kambuh berujung tidur pagi buta dan bangun terlambat, ehehe.

berangkat dari rumah jam 7 pagi, padahal niatnya mau naik bus ke Bekasi yang jam 7. luckily, since it was holiday, the road was very nice to me. bus berangkat dari Leuwi Panjang jam setengah 9 dan jam setengah 11 udah sampai Bekasi Timur, tempat aku janjian sama Neno. nungguin Neno yang ga datang-datang jadi sempet parno, jangan-jangan salah tempat nih. haduh, kebayang kan kalo ternyata aku turun bus di tempat yang salah. mana Neno sempet nelpon nanya ‘Rum, lo di gerbang Carrefour yang mana?’. huwee.. emang Carrefour punya berapa gerbang? tapi akhirnya ketemu juga kok, aku ga salah tempat, cuma setelahnya Neno ngasih tau kalo Carrefour tempat kita janjian itu ada dua gerbang masuk, makanya dia nanya.

Neno datang sama adiknya. biasa.. udah jadi bumil ga bisa kelayapan sendirian, ehehe. dari situ kita naik angkot, dan perjalanannya ternyata lambreta mampusi gitu. sejam perjalanan buat nyampe ke terminal.. apa ya.. Pondok Gede gitu? have no idea, bad memory with name. sepanjang perjalanan udah berdoa semoga jalanan berbaik hati sama aku, since I should went back home that afternoon, so I counted the tik-tok time. and thank Lord, it was my day, jalan lancar, angkot ga ngetem. nice. :)
 
sampai terminal ternyata masih harus pake busway lagi. ting-tung! how many transportation we need to go to Wulan’s home? oh iya, reuninya emang diadain di kontrakannya Wulan. awalnya rencana mau ke Sea World, tapi ga tau kenapa jadinya di kontrakan Wulan aja. lucunya pas naik busway, mas yang jaga tiket masuk flirting ga jelas gitu. awalnya kan Neno yang ngasihin tiket masuk, trus kan tiketnya disobek otomatis aku mikir ‘oh, sobekannya bakal dikembaliin’ dan berhubung aku yang ada di urutan paling belakang jadi kan aku yang ngambil sobekannya. sama mas-nyaemang disodorin, tapi pas aku ambil langsung ditahan gitu sambil senyum-senyum. lha, aku jadinya bingung, ni sobekan tiketnya beneran diambil lagi atau ga sih? mana Neno main jalan gitu aja. whew, that was my first time riding busway, so I definitely had no idea bout that. eh, taunya akhirnya tu tiket dikasihin ma mas-nya. hyaa, aku diisengin ma dia.. sialan! hmm, tapi mas-nya manis sih benernya, but ting-tong, when I says that that guy is sweet, cute, biasanya sang subyek ‘berondong’. yap, my signal always on just if I meet ‘berondong’. okay, I’m still trying to change it, btw.

Berhubung naiknya di terminal, busway-nya masih kosong. hyaa, akhirnya merasakan naik busway! (norak mode on!). ternyata jaraknya ga begitu jauh kok, ga lama kita turun. dari sana aku masih mikir, ‘what’s next?’ sebelum akhirnya lihat Wulan ngelambai dari kejauhan. oh, finally, kita sampai juga.

Sampai rumah Wulan taunya neng Bochi masih di jalan. iya lah, secara dia berangkat habis dhuhur. Bochi datang dan kita ngobrol-ngobrol, segala topik. dari soal nyicil rumah, kenalan yang lulus POM, Neno lahiran kapan dan di mana, it ended with Bochi ama siapa and aku ama siapa. same old topic, as usual. and same old answer, ga sama siapa-siapa. lha, emang kenyataannya aku lagi ga sama siapa-siapa, and I hate it when people won’t believe it and think that I just keep it secret. I even create my ‘imaginary boyfriend’ just to shut my co-worker. well well, whatever deh.

Jam setengah 5 Neno pulang duluan, soalnya sebagai bumil dia dapet jam malam yang strict banget, ehehe. aku tetap tinggal sampai jam setengah 6, soalnya jadinya pulang pake Cipaganti travel, kebetulan pool-nya ada yang deket rumah Wulan. lebih mahal sih, but at least I still had time to breath. soalnya kalo ga, aku harus balik lagi ke Bekasi buat naik bus. yeah, biarpun agak sedikit penasaran sama mas yang jaga tiket busway tadi. huhuy.. ahaha..

travel berangkat jam setengah 7. senengnya juga, travel itu di Bandung pool-nya di DU, jadi aku juga ga khawatir kalaupun sampai Bandung malem banget. at least it’s Dago, dan aku toh pernah ngalamin pulang jam 10 malem ngangkot dari Advent. malah kalo naik bus rada horor, ngebayangin pulang malam dari Leuwi Panjang. I don’t know that area. hmm, lucunya pas dikasih tau aku baru cabs dari Jakarta jam segitu dan kemungkinan nyampe Dago jam 10 nyokap langsung nyuruh aku sms Ajeng biar minta dijemput kalo ternyata udah kemaleman. whew, what’s up with my mom, worry me too much? since she was once back home at 10 pm with public transportation from Cileunyi. Cileunyi, saudara-saudara! yah, untungnya nyampe Dago jam 9 kurang, jadi pulang pake angkot aja deh.

that day I wanna say what’s wrong with the guys? that ticket guy? Then my travel-mate back home. there was a guy who sat behind me and always moved so his legs shake my chair, it made me couldn’t sleep even just some minutes. and then because I jumped to public transportation with him, when he was off, someone on the car suddenly asked me who he is – for sunshine’s sake, how could I know?

still tired now, but I should think about audit preparation. how could I prepare that if I have a manager who never communicate, even a word, with me? instead he asked his knowing-nothing secretary to help my preparation. really, I prefer work alone than having her help, since I just have 2 days left and there’s no time – also no mood – to teach anything to her. can you imagine how can I teach her everything about production documentation in 2 days?! for sunshine’s sake!!

ya sutralah.. time to rest.. but overall, I have a sweet small reunion.. thank you for bunda Retno  yang udah mau ngejemput aku di Bekasi Timur, buat neng Resty yang heboh ngajak ketemuan, buat emak Wulan yang kontrakannya dijadiin tempat berkumpul dan juga udah nyiapin banyak makanan buat kita-kita.. meet you later in Bandung? :)





Baby, It's Cold Outside



Alexander Rybak
yeah, right, it is a song title. one song that successfully makes my mind stuck for a while. first time I knew this song was from Alexander Rybak’s B-side song, from his first album – if I’m not wrong. he sang it duet with Lotta Engberg. when I first heard this song I thought ‘damn, this song is totally romantic’, and after I read the lyrics ‘damn, it’s definitely romantic yet sexy song ever’. buat aku lagu ini identik dengan salju, lovey-dovey couple, flirting things.. argh, just sweet. too sweet. badly, Alex ga mengeluarkan music video for this single. just wondered, how romantic it would be.


Kiara & Kovu

second time, I heard another version of this song, faster version and I don’t know who sang that until now. lagu itu jadi backsound adegan lovey-dovey Kiara and Kovu – sweet Lion couple in Lion King. the video and the music just really match. thumbs up for someone who made that. tapi, mungkn karena arrasemen lagunya lebih cepat, entah kenapa aku ga nemu feel dari lagu itu, which thankfully the video helps it much.



and then, I found a great version of this song. Well, best version I ever heard, I guess. awalnya waktu aku mengobrak-abrik youtube buat cari video Glee yang Poker Face – fell in love with Glee’s version since first time I heard – accidentally found this song. yupz, Kurt and Blaine’s version. okay, some people maybe (or definitely?) think it’s weird, two guys singing that romantic song together, with lovely atmosphere around. but I thought, and still thinking, that it’s so so romantic (damn you, my freaky brain!). watching them singing that song just make my heart melts. and since I just watched the video, I started to imagine how the storyline will go. so many romantic scenes ran inside my head (once again, damn you, freaky brain!). so, when I finally could watched the episode – it named ‘the very glee Christmas’, aku cuma bisa bengong depan komputer. so, just it?

jadi cerita sebenarnya tuh Blaine berniat untuk ikut audisi atau kompetisi (yeah, something like that) untuk rekaman lagu itu, so dia minta bantuan Kurt latihan duet dengan dia. that's all. oh my God, my imagination went too far. I thought something will happen between Kurt and Blaine. yeah, tapi kata Kurt waktu interview dengan EW mags juga ‘it need process’ (and I’m still wishing can find that magazine here!). so, I should blame it to my freaky brain also. ahaha, from that case, I guess I’m Klaine fans now. :D

but, really.. that song is so so romantic for me. well, is it wrong if my freaky brain wish that someday someone will sing that song for me? not in the middle of winter, maybe. maybe just in the middle of heavy rain? ;)





Wednesday, 9 February 2011

Dream a Little Dream of Me - Michael Buble



stars shining bright above you 
night breezes seem to whisper, "I love you"
birds singing in the sycamore tree
"dream a little dream of me"
say "nighty-night" and kiss me 
just hold me tight and tell me you'll miss me 
while I'm alone and blue as can be
dream a little dream of me

stars fading, but I linger on, dear
still craving your kiss
I'm longing to linger till dawn, dear 
just saying this

sweet dreams till sunbeams find you 
sweet dreams that leave all worries behind you
but in your dreams whatever they be
dream a little dream of me