Jealous - Daniel de Bourg (Heartbreak Lullaby #2)

I’m jealous of the rain

That falls upon your skin

It’s closer than my hands have been

Oh, I’m jealous of the rain

I’m jealous of the wind

That ripples through your clothes

It’s closer than your shadow

Oh, I’m jealous of the wind, cause

I’m jealous of the nights

That I don’t spend with you

I’m wondering who you lay next to

Oh, I’m jealous of the nights

Said I’m jealous of the love

The love that was in here

Gone for someone else to share

Yes, I’m jealous of the love, cause

I wished you the best of

All this world could give

And I told you when you left me

There’s nothing to forgive

But I always thought you’d come back

Tell me all you found were

Heartbreak and misery

It’s hard for me to say

I’m jealous of the way

You’re happy without me

Ashes And Wine - A Fine Frenzy (Heartbreak Lullaby #1)

Don't know what to do anymore

I've lost the only love worth fighting for

I'll drown in my tear storming sea

That would show you, that would make you hurt like me

All the same I don't want mudslinging games

It's such a shame to let you walk away

Don't know if our fate's already sealed

This day's spinning circus on a wheel

I'm ill with the thought of your kiss

Coffee laced intoxicating on her lips

Shut it out I've got no claim on you now

Not allowed to wear your freedom down

Is there a chance?

A fragment of light at the end of the tunnel?

A reason to fight?

Is there a chance you may change your mind?

Or are we ashes and wine?

I'll tear myself away that is what you need

There is nothing left to say

But

Is there a chance?

A fragment of light at the end of the tunnel?

A reason to fight?

Is there a chance you may change your mind?

Or are we ashes and wine?

The day's still ashes and wine

Or are we ashes?

Heartbreak Lullaby

udah lama nggak posting blog, sekalinya posting malah mau curhat soal patah hati.. ahahaha.. 

well, mungkin nggak bisa dibilang patah hati juga sih, karena notabene baru mulai naksir-naksir nggak jelas sekitar bulan april.. dan emang nggak jelas, toh niat awalnya cuma buat nyari pemandangan indah aja (eh, itu jelas yak.. jelas-jelas cuma buat pemandangan indah doang).. tapi gara-gara dibikin baper (atau emang hatinya aja ke-GR-an doang - damn you, heart!), tanpa sadar semuanya berubah.. dan kemarin akhirnya merasakan kembali yang namanya patah hati.. nangis malem-malem sampai nyesek (dan bikin kepala dung-deng).. denger lagu mellow dikit langsung sensitif.. my world changed in a flick of time.. dan mendadak punya soundtrack aja, lagu yang tiba-tiba keputer sendiri di kepala dan nggak bisa buat dihapus..

pertama kejadian, yang kepikiran langsung lagu Notice Me-nya David Archuleta.. but in fact, he noticed me, really notice me.. sikap dia baik banget, terlalu baik malah.. terlalu ramah malah.. dan aku sering mergokin dia merhatiin aku, ngelirik ke arah aku (makanya jadi bikin baper juga!).. the only question is did he notice my heart.. mungkin nggak.. mungkin aku hanyalah salah satu jiwa menyenangkan yang hadir dalam hidupnya dia.. yeah, rite, menyenangkan.. ribet sih iya, ahahaha..

dan kemudian aku jatuh hati sama lagu Ashes and Wine-nya A Fine Frenzy.. awalnya sih gara-gara pengen dengerin yang Almost Lover (nope, we never in 'almost lover' position, never that far), akhirnya mutusin buat dengerin full satu album dan langsung stuck sama lagu Ashes and Wine..

 

Is there a chance?

A fragment of light at the end of the tunnel? 

A reason to fight?

Is there a chance you may change your mind? 

Or are we ashes and wine?

begitu denger liriknya berasa ngena banget aja.. I'm still searching for a chance, somehow he realize my feeling.. says he has some feeling for me.. I guess it just my wishful thinking, huh? *pukpuk diri sendiri

beberapa hari lalu dengerin lagi Jealous-nya Labrinth, tapi cover version-nya Daniel De Bourg.. dan upaya merelakanku berhenti di situ.. hingga sekarang, berapa banyak pun lagu yang aku denger, nada pertama yang keluar tanpa sadar adalah reffrain lagu ini.. bahkan, saat kemarin lagi reunian with my girls, denger intronya aja aku udah tahu..

I wished you the best of all this world could give..

and I told you when you left me there's nothing to forgive..

but I always thought you'd come back, 

tell me all you found were heartbreak and misery..

It's hard for me to say, I'm jealous of the way..

you're happy without me..

dan~

bikin pengen nangis lagi aja..

sebenernya aku juga nggak nyangka bakal 'kebablasan' seperti ini.. status pemandangan indah entah sejak kapan mulai berubah.. mungkin sejak aku nangkep 'perhatian-perhatian' dia yang terasa berbeda.. sapaan dia yang tiba-tiba.. komentar yang tiba-tiba.. perlahan dia mulai masuk lebih dalam.. and voila, I've got myself a brokenheart.. well, tapi udah lama juga sih nggak ngerasain lagi nangis malem-malem sampai mata bengkak.. ribuan tanya yang ingin dilayangkan pada sang Pencipta, namun hanya sunyi yang lahir, karena kata tak sanggup terangkai.. berharap dalam sepi pun ingin hati dapat tersampaikan, dialog dengan sang Penguasa Malam pun dapat tercipta.. berharap Dia dapat mengerti inginku.. berharap aku dapat menerima ceritaku.. yang entah akan bermuara di mana..

hey, kamu..

aku kemarin belum sempet bilang ya..

terima kasih untuk semuanya..