Heartbreak Lullaby

udah lama nggak posting blog, sekalinya posting malah mau curhat soal patah hati.. ahahaha.. 

well, mungkin nggak bisa dibilang patah hati juga sih, karena notabene baru mulai naksir-naksir nggak jelas sekitar bulan april.. dan emang nggak jelas, toh niat awalnya cuma buat nyari pemandangan indah aja (eh, itu jelas yak.. jelas-jelas cuma buat pemandangan indah doang).. tapi gara-gara dibikin baper (atau emang hatinya aja ke-GR-an doang - damn you, heart!), tanpa sadar semuanya berubah.. dan kemarin akhirnya merasakan kembali yang namanya patah hati.. nangis malem-malem sampai nyesek (dan bikin kepala dung-deng).. denger lagu mellow dikit langsung sensitif.. my world changed in a flick of time.. dan mendadak punya soundtrack aja, lagu yang tiba-tiba keputer sendiri di kepala dan nggak bisa buat dihapus..

pertama kejadian, yang kepikiran langsung lagu Notice Me-nya David Archuleta.. but in fact, he noticed me, really notice me.. sikap dia baik banget, terlalu baik malah.. terlalu ramah malah.. dan aku sering mergokin dia merhatiin aku, ngelirik ke arah aku (makanya jadi bikin baper juga!).. the only question is did he notice my heart.. mungkin nggak.. mungkin aku hanyalah salah satu jiwa menyenangkan yang hadir dalam hidupnya dia.. yeah, rite, menyenangkan.. ribet sih iya, ahahaha..

dan kemudian aku jatuh hati sama lagu Ashes and Wine-nya A Fine Frenzy.. awalnya sih gara-gara pengen dengerin yang Almost Lover (nope, we never in 'almost lover' position, never that far), akhirnya mutusin buat dengerin full satu album dan langsung stuck sama lagu Ashes and Wine..

 

Is there a chance?

A fragment of light at the end of the tunnel? 

A reason to fight?

Is there a chance you may change your mind? 

Or are we ashes and wine?

begitu denger liriknya berasa ngena banget aja.. I'm still searching for a chance, somehow he realize my feeling.. says he has some feeling for me.. I guess it just my wishful thinking, huh? *pukpuk diri sendiri

beberapa hari lalu dengerin lagi Jealous-nya Labrinth, tapi cover version-nya Daniel De Bourg.. dan upaya merelakanku berhenti di situ.. hingga sekarang, berapa banyak pun lagu yang aku denger, nada pertama yang keluar tanpa sadar adalah reffrain lagu ini.. bahkan, saat kemarin lagi reunian with my girls, denger intronya aja aku udah tahu..

I wished you the best of all this world could give..

and I told you when you left me there's nothing to forgive..

but I always thought you'd come back, 

tell me all you found were heartbreak and misery..

It's hard for me to say, I'm jealous of the way..

you're happy without me..

dan~

bikin pengen nangis lagi aja..

sebenernya aku juga nggak nyangka bakal 'kebablasan' seperti ini.. status pemandangan indah entah sejak kapan mulai berubah.. mungkin sejak aku nangkep 'perhatian-perhatian' dia yang terasa berbeda.. sapaan dia yang tiba-tiba.. komentar yang tiba-tiba.. perlahan dia mulai masuk lebih dalam.. and voila, I've got myself a brokenheart.. well, tapi udah lama juga sih nggak ngerasain lagi nangis malem-malem sampai mata bengkak.. ribuan tanya yang ingin dilayangkan pada sang Pencipta, namun hanya sunyi yang lahir, karena kata tak sanggup terangkai.. berharap dalam sepi pun ingin hati dapat tersampaikan, dialog dengan sang Penguasa Malam pun dapat tercipta.. berharap Dia dapat mengerti inginku.. berharap aku dapat menerima ceritaku.. yang entah akan bermuara di mana..

hey, kamu..

aku kemarin belum sempet bilang ya..

terima kasih untuk semuanya..

5 Centimeters per Second

“Hey, I heard it 5 centimeters per second. The speed at which a cherry blossom petal falls is 5 centimeters per second.”

Akari

Beberapa waktu lalu aku nemuin anime ini di internet, dan iseng nonton karena ceritanya juga cukup singkat, cuma 3 episode aja. Tapi ternyata ceritanya dalem bangeett..

Jadi secara garis besar, film ini menceritakan hubungan persahabatan antara dua orang - Tohno Takaki dan Ahinohara Akari - yang kemudian harus dipisahkan jarak karena Akari harus pindah ke kota lain, dan hubungan persahabatan itu dilanjutkan dengan saling berkirim surat.

“The last time we saw each other was at our elementary school graduation ceremony. Half a year has already passed since then. Hey, Takaki-kun, do you still remember me?”

Akari

Suatu hari Takaki pun harus pindah ke lain kota - ke tempat yang lebih jauh lagi - yang membuat Takaki memutuskan untuk menghampiri Akari, meskipun harus berkali-kali berganti kereta.

Dan mereka pun kembali berpisah dengan perasaan yang tidak mampu mereka sampaikan, hanya janji untuk tetap saling berkirim surat.

Namun jarak dan waktu semakin memisahkan dua hati, membuatnya semakin tak beriring. Dan komunikasi pun akhirnya tak lagi tercipta.

“When did I get into the habit of typing text messages without an address to send them to?”

Takaki

Beberapa tahun kemudian, Takaki pun kembali ke kota asal. Dan tanpa sengaja bersimpangan jalan dengan seseorang dari masa lalunya..

        "I strongly felt, that if I looked back now, she would look back as well.”

Takaki

Dan satu lagu di akhir episode 3 dengan suksesnya bikin aku nangis. What a tragic love, I guess, saat waktu memaksa seseorang untuk terus melangkah maju sementara masa lalu masih terus berada di sudut ingatan dan menyelinap kembali di saat-saat terlemah kita..

I’m always searching

For your figure to appear somewhere

On the opposite platform, in the windows along the lane

Even though I know you couldn’t be at such a place

If my wish were to come true

I would be at your side right away

There would be nothing I couldn’t do

I would put everything on the risk and hold you tight, I'll show you

If I just wanted to distract my loneliness

Anybody would have been enough

The stars seems like it will fall in the night

Which is why I can't lie to myself

One more time

Oh seasons, don't disappear

One more time

The time when we were fooling around

I’m always searching

For your figure to appear somewhere

Even when I'm crossing a street, even in the midst of my dreams

Even though I know you couldn’t be at such a place

If a miracle were to happen

I would want to show you immediately

A new morning, who I’ll be from now on

And the words I never said called: "I Love You"

The memories of summer are revolving

The throbbing which suddenly disappeared

I’m always searching

For your figure to appear somewhere

At dawn on the streets, at Sakuragi-cho

Even though I know you couldn’t be at such a place

If my wish were to come true

I would be at your side right away

There would be nothing I couldn’t do

I would put everything on the risk and hold you tight, I'll show you

I’m always searching,

For the fragments of you to appear somewhere

At a traveler’s store, in the corner of newspaper

Even though I know you couldn’t be at such a place

If a miracle were to happen

I would want to show you immediately

A new morning, who I’ll be from now on

And the words I never said called: “I Love You”

I always end up looking

For your smile to appear somewhere

At the railroad crossing, waiting for the express to pass

Even though I know you couldn’t be at such a place

If our lives could be restarted,

No matter how many times it will be, I will go back to you

There’s nothing else that I want

Nothing else is more important than you…

[One More Time, One More Chance - translation lyrics version]

link of song : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zcobguGC5yY

Do You Hear The People Sing? - Les Miserables

Do you hear the people sing?

Singing a song of angry men?

It is the music of a people

Who will not be slaves again!

When the beating of your heart

Echoes the beating of the drums

There is a life about to start

When tomorrow comes!

Will you join in our crusade?

Who will be strong and stand with me?

Beyond the barricade

Is there a world you long to see?

Then join in the fight

That will give you the right to be free!

Do you hear the people sing?

Singing a song of angry men?

It is the music of a people

Who will not be slaves again!

When the beating of your heart

Echoes the beating of the drums

There is a life about to start

When tomorrow comes!

Will you give all you can give

So that our banner may advance

Some will fall and some will live

Will you stand up and take your chance?

The blood of the martyrs

Will water the meadows of France!

Do you hear the people sing?

Singing a song of angry men?

It is the music of a people

Who will not be slaves again!

When the beating of your heart

Echoes the beating of the drums

There is a life about to start

When tomorrow comes!

So Close - Jon McLaughlin

last week I watched 'Enchanted' movie again on Disney Channel..
when it came to dance-scene with this song, I almost burst into tears..
ahaha.. mungkin pas lagi sensi aja kali ya..
soalnya terakhir kali nonton film ini, ga ada adegan aku sampai terharu segala kok..

but this song is really sweet.. and the scene is really romantic..

                       you're in my arms
              and all the world is calm
        the music playing on, for only two
                   so close, together
                and when I'm with you

              so close, to feeling alive

                     as life goes by,
             romantic dreams must die
    so I bid my goodbye, and never knew
                 so close, was waiting
                waiting here with you
              and now, forever, I know

                   all that I wanted,
              was to hold you, so close
                 so close, to reaching
           that famous happy end, and
                  almost, believing,
           this one's not pretend, and
               now you're, beside me
          and look how far we've come

                     so far, we are
                          so close..

   oh how could I face, the faceless days?
             if I should lose you now
                           we're.. 
 so close, to reaching, that famous happy end
 and almost, believing, this one's not pretend
 and let's go on dreaming, for we know we are

                         so close..
                         so close..
                    and still so far..