apa kabarmu?

apa kabar, cinta..

ketika kau kembali hadir namun hati belum jua siap

kala kau terseok dalam ketakberdayaan

dan ketika aku kembali memeluk satu rasa yang salah

apa kabar, hati..

lagi dan lagi kau harus terjatuh

kala merindu sang rembulan layaknya pungguk

kembali mimpi itu harus kau kubur

apa kabar, pangeran jiwa

sampaikah nyanyian gundah ini ke telinga

berharap mampu menyentuh sebuah jiwa

dan ciptakan rasa yang sama

hey, kau..

apa kabarmu?

Almost Lover - A Fine Frenzy

Your fingertips across my skin
The palm trees swaying in the wind
Images

You sang me Spanish lullabies
The sweetest sadness in your eyes
Clever trick

I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
I should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

We walked along a crowded street
You took my hand and danced with me
Images

And when you left you kissed my lips
You told me you'd never ever forget these images, no

I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
I should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot drive the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind
So you're gone and I'm haunted
And I bet you are just fine
Did I make it that easy
To walk right in and out of my life?

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
I should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

ps :
goodbye my spring story, my secret love..
thank you for a wonderful feeling..

To Have A Home - A Very Potter Sequel OST

Home,
I've heard the word before,
but it never meant much more
than just a thing I've never had.

A "place,"
They say, "Hey, know your place!"
But I've never had a place to even know,
or a face that I could go to
if I needed someone there...

I'm laughing
it's hard to hide a smile
My god, it's been a while
since I have had a reason to.

To think
it's been here all along
somewhere to belong,
and a reason,
a something-to-believe-in

I've finally found it,
a place where I'm wanted...
This must be how it feels to have a home

I used to dream about it
but never schemed or counted
on fantasies or wishes-
it breaks a man to see what he misses

For so many nights I'd pray
for a better life, a better day
but I never thought that it'd come true
It's finally here and I don't know what to do
and I'm trying not to cry

This must be how it feels
to have a home

I've finally made it
I've hoped and I've waited
and for the first time in my life, I don't feel so
alone

My heart starts to heal
to know this is real.
This is how it must feel
to have a home!

dear Cupid

sudah lama aku tak menatap satu sudut langit itu, ketika wajah dipaksa terus mengarah ke gugusan cahaya lainnya.. namun semalam, saat rindu membuncah, mendesak untuk melirik sang kilau mungil pemilik hati, ia telah menjelma menjadi cahaya terang mempesona.. dan aku kembali jatuh, merindu satu masa saat aku masih dapat bebas menatapnya.. bebas untuk mengaguminya..

ah, Pencipta, mengapa harus wajah ini dipalingkan? mengapa tak berhak lagi kutatap kilau itu? mengapa aku merasa bahwa mimpi sederhanaku takkan mungkin lagi jadi nyata?

ah, sang Penguasa Semesta, aku rindu dia..

Quotes – Neil Gaiman

"Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love."

— Neil Gaiman (The Kindly Ones)

Me said :

yup.. one thing I hate when I’m falling to someone is that I can’t have any control again to myself.. and having that mood-swing is so tiring.. being happy and then disappoint and then sad just because one small little thing really mess my day, and it forces my energy to the limit level..

positive thing saat kita jatuh cinta adalah tambahan semangat.. sometimes, memiliki perasaan itu saja bisa membuat kita merasa mampu melakukan segala hal, mampu melakukan banyak hal seolah kita sama sekali tak kehilangan energi.. bahkan di akhir minggu pun kita masih bisa semangat untuk menjalani hari, tak menghiraukan panas-macet jalanan utama asal bisa bertemu sang pujaan hati.. well, those are the positive..

the negative one, I have no more words to describe it more than Mr. Gaiman.. he described it very well.. pada saat perasaan itu memasuki masa galau, it turns into hell.. no more self-control and it creates hurt in your left chest, again and again until all you wanna do is just sleep so you can runaway from that pain for a while.. and even your nightmare is far better than your real life..

but I don’t think that it’s wrong to fall in love.. but protect yourself with not falling to deep so you can keep think clearly and move on when it starts to hurt you..

Ramadhan kali ini..

Ramadhan kali ini aku ingin belajar merelakan.. aku ingin belajar untuk bisa pasrah, menerima apa yang sudah digariskan oleh sang Pencipta dan menikmati setiap kepingnya.. aku ingin belajar untuk menyukai dia apa adanya, tanpa menimbun terlalu banyak harap.. aku ingin belajar tak membebani rasa dengan ego, untuk selalu bersyukur atas tiap pertemuan yang tergores.. aku ingin belajar untuk kembali bermimpi, namun tak terlalu tinggi hingga terluka.. aku ingin belajar untuk selalu menghargai detik kebersamaan dan bukannya mencaci, meski ia seringkali tak tersentuh..

Ramadhan kali ini aku ingin kembali belajar.. belajar untuk mengenal hati.. dan belajar untuk menghargai cinta..

_(^_^)_

Let Go

artikel yang diambil dari web Single Woman

The Single Woman's Dash of Sass: August 3, 2011

To let go isn't to forgot, not to think about, or ignore. It doesn't leave feelings of anger, jealousy, or regret. Letting go isn't about winning or losing. It's not about pride and it's not about how you appear, and it's not obsessing or dwelling on the past. Letting go isn't blocking memories or thinking sad thoughts, and doesn't leave emptiness, hurt, or sadness. It's not about giving in or giving up. Letting go isn't about loss and it's not about defeat.

To let go is to cherish the memories, but to overcome and move on. It is having an open mind confidence in the future. Letting go is learning and experiencing and growing. To let go is to be thankful for the experiences that made you laugh, made you cry, and made you grow. It's about all that you have, all that you had, and all that you will soon gain. Letting go is having the courage to accept change, and the strength to keep moving. Letting go is growing up. It is realizing that the heart can sometimes be the most potent remedy. To let go is to open a door, and to clear a path and set yourself free.

Cut the ties,

break the chains,

and set yourself free.

Your life is waiting.

my new project

I never knew just what it was

about this old coffee shop I love so much
All of the while I never knew

All of the while
All of the while
All of the while it was you

[Landon Pigg – Falling In Love at the Coffee Shop]

hmm.. gara-gara beberapa waktu yang lalu ada yang tiba-tiba muterin lagunya Landon Pigg – Falling In Love at the Coffee Shop, jadi kangen lagi sama lagu itu.. dan akhirnya selama beberapa hari lagu itu masuk lagi ke daftar playlist Charon aku – bahkan sempet bikin aku stuck selama dua hari.. dan dari situ mendadak keidean untuk bikin short story tentang Coffee Shop..

project ini aku kasih nama “Coffee Shop Series”.. rencananya aku mau buat beberapa short story dengan latar belakang tempat yang sama : coffee shop.. well, sejauh ini sih baru ada tiga draft yang melintas di kepala, dan baru satu yang berhasil terealisasikan dalam bentuk tulisan meskipun masih setengah jalan.. dan dalam pembuatan cerita pertama inilah aku akhirnya menemukan nama yang sepertinya pas untuk Coffee Shop tersebut : Rendez-Vous..

so, it’s time for me to write again.. :)



Supercow

 

salah satu games keluaran Game House ini saat ini sedang jadi game favorit aku.. ga pernah bikin bosan, bahkan meskipun sudah sampai tahap akhir dan permainan sudah berakhir, aku kemudian mengulang lagi dari tahap pertama.. and then and then and then..

selalu ada kata-kata menarik yang aku temukan di game ini.. dan ingin share beberapa di antaranya – yang juga menjadi quote favorit aku.. :)

live your life so you don’t feel bad in the morning for wasting your time the day before.

live is a strange flow of circumstances. but superhero doesn’t need to go with the flow!!!

my enemies only make me stronger.. and I make them nicer.

the true understanding is that nobody understands anything. but everybody’s right in his own way.

lots of people fly in their dreams. I fly as well. I dream of a field covered with tasty clover. I fly over it and flutter. I guess I will be a butterfly in my next life.

but the main point to the adventure is the difficulties that are fun to remember later. right?

live is really strange. evil and treachery live next door to honesty and generosity, and sometimes switch places.

so what’s the most important thing in our super-business? the most important thing is keep your feet on the ground and keep reaching for the stars.

the true path of a superhero is a path of Love For All Living Creatures.

words I wanna say